care too much?

did i care too much abt it? I failed my 2.4! I'm really sad abt it! but am i too over concern abt it? I failed all because my stomach feel so PAIN! and i feel like gt internal bleeding! therefore i scared if i continue to run i might die! since there's so many news abt ppl run run run then die....... all of the sudden! there's no reason for me to risk my life to something like this! OK! i jus have to wait till the nx napfa! I will train my running! i mus!!! MUS!! get 5point or maybe at least 4points for my 2.4!! but i wish for 5points la! i think everyone will think! pls la! u think too much liao! u can! hahaha..... dont believe u can do it! because i'm fat!

stereotype of fat ppl = cant run, weak, lazy, pass napfa? vry funny! alot illness........ and etc.........

i guess......... but i will do it!! no matter wat! i dont noe the real cause of today! but maybe i ran too fast in the first round or maybe i drank too much water before i went running! but also maybe too long nv run! i shuldnt put my hopes so high! i feel so disappointed! and abit embarrass! hahaa......... but i will get my points the nx round! hope ppl believe tt i actually get 5 points for my napfa in the past...... but nvm........ it's stated in my napfa records! wuahahaa........ dont believe also i dont care! plus noone say they dont believe la! but those tt dont noe me might think tt i think too much liao! hahaaa..........

i feel so tired! and so no mood to do project liao! haiz......... but i mus finish my part! jiayou!!!

haiz....... hope can slp early! i feel so slpy!! and disappointed!! but jan vry fast come one! i will train before it come! and get my aim! but i guess i shuldnt aim so high this time! later somethings happen again! then i will be vry vry disappointed! as u noe! when u put ur hopes high u and u cant reach! u will get more disappointed! nvm......... i noe everyone can understand it! because there is sure something tt u r disappointed with............ this is an experience! jiayou!

anyway it's so stupid! wat i aim i failed! and wat i didnt aim i pass........... haiz........... actually quite lazy to do napfa liao! can jus take 2.4? vry sianz to take the rest again.......... haiz....... ok then nvm......... forget abt it! i shall do better nx time! i go do work liao! dont think abt it liao! life still goes on.... no matter hw bad things are!

Ya! i haven tok abt the care too much! wat i mean by care too much is tt! i wonder did i care too much to get so high points to pass my 2.4? as in i dont even ned napfa in order to go work or study! actually i mean i dont ned napfa for NS! because i dont hav NS! y do i care so much? i guess it's jus because my past results! tt let me wan to get tt points so much! nvm....... noone will understand! the thing is tt noone like 2.4! ppl jus think i crazy of 2.4! actually maybe i am! tt's y i wonder did i care too much for napfa? or i shuld say in specific 2.4! i care abt 2.4 only! but i did so badly for tt! jus like blaw! i love blaw this module! but i gt a B! it make me quite sad tt time too! the disappointment! nvm............ i'm so tired......... ok i shall continue and go do project....... bye bye!!

WAT A SAD DAY!!!!